I'm one more lie.
One more disappointment away from locking myself inside forever..
It's always the same fucking shit...
And I have no faith in people anymore.
I haven't for a long time.
And this is why I stay single.
No one can hurt me if I don't allow myself to love them in a monogamous type of way..
No one can let me down.
No one can break my trust.
No one can make me feel alive and then strip my world from underneath the ground I am walking on so freely...
"everyone you love will someday let you down"
so why should I allow myself to love anyone except from afar...
I don't want to play with fire anymore,
I've got these third degree burns as proof that I have learned my lessons through experience.
I just want to rest.
I'm not fucking picky, I'm over it.
It's just sad...
Sad to know...
I control myself and no one else, so I will stay alone by choice. I find no comfort in either scenario.
It's more sad than anything...
It's just so sad to know.
I'm a locked chest in a sea
with a lost key.
2:14 a.m. - 2014-04-03
Recent entries:
just a t.a.d. bit further - 2015-10-13
Isn't it sad to know - 2014-04-03
Unexpected plot twist. - 2013-12-28
Sadness. - 2013-12-05
Execution - 2013-11-08
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