Life is difficult right now.
At least more than usual...
I lost a best friend, my one truest love, so I thought...
I don't think she understands that the principle of the matter is that she brought meth into someone's home. It has nothing to do with her and the guy she smoked it with...It's just the fact that there are three young girls that live there and she brought a hard drug into another woman's home...The old her would understand. She appreciated integrity, respect, and love.
She is paranoid that I was trying to backstab her when in reality I am fed up with the lying, the constant abuse of our friendship, the facade. She isn't even herself anymore so who am I hanging out with or talking to when I am around her? Exactly, I am not alone in throwing a friendship away here. I just put my foot down. Probably wasn't the best way to go about things, but neither is what she is doing to me. I am so hurt and mad....
I cried in my mother's arms about the loss of my bestest friend to a drug unworthy of being in her body. No one else is really surprised, but I held onto her for so long. I hoped more than I should've. I begged her to get back on diaryland, because I knew it could be beneficial. And....nothing but her playing the victim as always. Lying to her boyfriend and her best friend.....I just sense something completely wrong... I mean she blatantly admitted to smoking meth. And I just want to slap the shit out of her. Instead, I have to just pray that everything will be okay for her...
That her son won't ever know her as this person because he is still young enough to forget... He deserves her at her best.
4:16 a.m. - 2013-12-05
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