so thanksgiving break, started wed with me going to pick up paul from the airport when his parents were going to beaumont.
then thursday we hung out durng the day before i went to my friend smashlys for thanksgiving. cause we werent celebrating til friday. theeen we made plans for me to see him that night-12 o clock rolls around me and smashly are just sittin at my house and i'm callin paul but he's not answering, meanwhile this guy brian is textin smash and he wants her to go out to this party. so im like fuck it let's go.
so we go, and i get introduced to a buncha people. and the whole night goes pretty fucking good, i get high for free and got like 8 half smoken sweets for free. then i met this really sweet guy named nic. and i was really high so i took him back to my car and he had no idea this was comin but i gave him head for no reason lol. and he was lke OMG IM IN LOVE BLAH BLAH. then he was like alllll over me when we went back inside and let me use his jacket when i got cold and was holding my hand the rest of the night, it was really cute how we danced and stuff too. something i'm not use to..then we played some beer pong and i chugged a beer and again he was like omg im in love, so he asked for my number then before i left he gave me his and kissed me goodbye.
then friday i didn't get to see him, cause we had thanksgiving and i told him that. and i was still trying to see paul but -he had things to do.
so saturday paul said 'for sure im gonna see you, even if i gotta go to you' never happened, after rejectin my calls and shit i called up smashly and we went out to priscillas saturday and i saw nic! and we left and had awesome sex. really....awesome...
it was a defining moment, for it was the first time i had sex with anyone other than paul in the past couple of months. see i never really had sex with marty, i just let him mess around i guess? but never did he touch my vag. lol. but yeah, i didn't feel guilty. and the guy is really nice, did i mention he's one of cayce's exs. lol what a small world.
buut then paul calls me while i'm out with nic, and hes about to leave for houston to catch his plane and didnt want to leave with me being mad..
and now we're having one of those important weeks where we try to figure out what paul wants cause he doesn't want to lose me or hurt me but he doesnt want to do that to april..but he needs to fuckin make up his mind!
if nic were calling/texting me, i think i wouldn't care. but i don't know.
he's jewish, haaa.
and charles never text me while he was down for thanksgiving, that was kinda...disappointing? i really thought he was gonna be worth it but i guess not.
so thats
paul-LFKAJLFKJE
nic-taking it slow with this one.
charles-dont know
guy at work-ew. mistake
marty-too much of a pussy.
and that's all i've got going really.
my grades have been slipping, but they always do around this time of year. i have a 79 in government cause i cheated and lost points on an frq, hah.
idk what i have in bio2 and calc.
but i know grades for that are -eek.
and weight wise-i'm pretty satisfied with 117 i guess. i'm not gonna stop though.
mental health-i'm in denial. like always and i won't address anything i actually feel because being pissed off is much easier. we'll save that for another day
9:02 p.m. - 2008-12-01
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