what is it called when you want to be with someone but they dont want to be with you. but they want to kiss you, hold you, and have sex with you. and they tell you that they love you and care about you. buuut they won't talk to you in school too much because people are gonna talk. and more gossip is gonna get around about how he's just using me but we both know it's more than that. and they tell you when they go to school that they're gonna come down and still want things to be the same, but not if i have a boyfriend we dont have to mess around...and he doesnt want me to not be anyone because of him, and when he hears that i have sex with other people he says he doesn't care. but then gives me the third degree about it later and claim cause it's cause he's like my man..but hours earlier it was...we can just be friends
and we can never be more than just friends
and yet i find myself not having sex or messing around with anyone but you.
and i dont want to talk to anyone but you.
it's hard; i wish i could make myself get over this and jump into a relationship with someone who sincerely want to be with me and only me. but i can't hurt anyone like because i know i wouldn't be giving them all of me. my feelings, thoughts and body.
i know, deep down you have feelings for me and you want to be more than friends you're just afraid you're gonna lose april if that happens.
3:07 p.m. - 2008-01-13
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