does anyone notice that when they're high, they have like this one sense that seemingly functions better than the rest? But it's never the same sense. It can be taste at one time, and everything you eat is detailed down to the last bite. Or it can be your hearing, and you pay attention to every instrument in the song you're listening to.
Last night it was hearing for me. Hah, and i love the bass in my car. Paul wants to get high on the way to lake jackson tomorrow and tonight when I go over to see him. But i don't have my money in the bank til midnight and who the heck is going to want to wake up for ME to buy weed from them.
For the past two days, I got to smoke with Meredith <3. It's crazy that i saw her twice in one week. That NEVER happens. But the difference between smoking with her and with Paul. Is that she's funner to be around even if we're not saying much at all. I feel more relaxed when I'm high with her, but when I'm with Paul i feel nervous and awkward. Like I shouldn't be high when I'm with him.
On a relationship level, I feel closer to him because of it though. It doesn't make any sense to why but I can feel it.
Last night, when I was thinking about leaving to see Paul, I fell asleep and when I woke up I realized that I have never truly been in love with someone like the love people sing about. I've been needy, and dependent. But never have I loved someone and felt like they truly bring out the best in me. At times, Paul does that, but not all the time.
Dear diary, at least I can say I had fun wasting my time.
not.
3:50 p.m. - 2008-12-18
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