maybe i'm just feeling a distance growing, and myself getting over you. but i don't want to get over you, i don't want to let go, maybe when i see you in two weeks we'll be okay. but maybe it'll be just like how we were when we're in texas and i'll still be unsatisfied-unhappy and unappreciated. either way, i'm making that trip to new mexico-whether i see you or not is up to the way you act. and carrie's coming with me and we're going to go see darian also. so if you fail i'll just have fun there. i just i don't know WHY i'm going to see you or why i'm even listening to the bullshit you're telling me. i wish you could surprise me and do something i'm not expecting.
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this is not enough.
it's not going to cut it.
i dont even know how much i weigh right now. its probably 120s maybe even mid 120s...
i'm not happy i'm not okay and all i want to do is kill someone.
STUPIDstupidSTUPIDstupid.
anna, how could you let him talk to you like that
how could you let him THINK he actually has an impact on your life when he doesn't
oh but he does because he's right.
but he's not! ugh it doesn't make sense but it does.
i DO create competition for myself but because i think i need to work on stuff no one is telling me to, then he goes and tells me i need to-so then it seems like i'm doing this for him when i'm not and gives him that satisfaction but it's not like that and i just want to slap him in his stupid ugly gayass fat mexican face
I HATE MY BOYFRIEND.
he reminds me of a faggot lance.
and paul-ugggggggggh wtf man.
how does HE someone who is still in a relationship tell ME to stay single for him and blah blah blah.
anyway
went to church for the first time ever at holy cross and went out to eat at pizza hut and saw aprils ugly car which i'm going to fuck up again. and then went out to eat at chilis w/some very old friends just pissin myself off.
this is the life?
8:06 a.m. - 2008-08-19
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