Today is my 17th birthday :]
im so young haha. anyway i've been doing a lot of thinking since the fight with april and i think i'm going to write her a letter about paul and why i fought her and all that stuff so i'm going to do a practice letter on here. then put it on myspace or send it to her.
Dear April,
I want to start off by apologizing for everything I've done so far and if you don't want to kill me by now, after reading this letter I'm sure you will. But please take the time to take into consideration what I'm telling you. I am tired of lying to you and everyone else for Paul and I think it's time you know the truth. He's been cheating on you with me up until this point since September of LAST year. And from there it's grown alot into something it never should've. I'm sorry you didn't realize it before but there were so many signs you missed. Like Did it even occur to you that I KNEW you were at the gym with him because he told me to go? Did you even realize how he didn't hold YOU back at the gym, he ran straight to me? Think about what I said at the gym "tell her or i will", I wanted to tell you then but he told me not to or he wouldn't talk to me. Or before you joined the gym we'd been going together playing rachetball just like y'all do. I don't want to sound like i'm saying he loves me more than he loves you because I know that's not true, but understand he does have strong feelings for me. And whether he loses them or denies them to you doesn't bother me anymore. because i will SHOW you the text messages, phone calls on my phone, msn conversations, and you can ask angela and sable if it's true because they've taken me to spend the night with him before. So that you get the intensity of the situation I'm going to list a few things he did behind your back.
1. eat me out, have sex with me all that.
2. pick me up from work at oxea and heb when i use to work there.
3. come over to my house and have me over there all the time, mostly at night
4. go to the gym with me on a reg. basis
5. have me go to his job when he got rehired
6. text me while you're with him.
7. see me after he saw you at pizza hut
8. send me and every other girl naked pics of himself. {still hav them if you don't believe me}
9. tells me he loves me and misses me on a daily basis {will prove that with texts/msn conversations}
10.he always tellin me how he'd be with me if you weren't his girlfriend.
11. plans on still continuing this 'friendship' we have throughout college and even when he's married
12. haha when you called complainin the night all the stuff happened at the gym, i was next to him laughing sable dropped me off that night
13. that red cardbox of sex positions cards and ky is MINE but i kept it at his house.
14. that camera you lost took one of the sex videos we have, and his new one did too. and i bought that camera
when we went to walmart together on the day of graduation and afterwards he went to see you and told me you got mad cause he wouldn't let you see some text messages that we from ME.
15. one of the reasons he got cingular service was so YOU AND ME could talk to him for free.
16. i'm getting tired of listing so i'm sure you get the picture if not i have alot more i could tell you about.
oh and it wasn't JUST me he's been cheatin on you with. he's been talkin to briana williams STILL.
and i'm sure paul is going to deny most of this so if he does, i'd gladly show you everything you need as a proof.
i'm not telling you to ruin your relationship with him, in fact y'all should stay together y'all are both dumb as hell.
and i'm telling you because i feel sorry for you and I don't want that guilt on my chest anymore. i just can't continue hurting myself or anyone else by lying about him.
if you have any questions
my email is [email protected]
but i'd prefer to see you in person.
8:48 a.m. - 2008-08-05
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