Yesterday was good.
Me and Paul went to the gym.
Worked out, played rachetball, went to the sauna and swimming. Then had sex in the pool. Then I weighed myself afterwards in front of him. Kinda weird that I'm actually comfortable to do that..but anyway 119.5
I'm a lot more comfortable just going by weight differences rather than examining every single aspect like, how many times I purge or how much I eat to the calories etc.
I think the pageant screwed me up. I mean I DID place TOP TEN and FIRST Runnerup Miss Personality. but it's just so much competition. And I fluctuated so bad the week before.
Maybe I didn't make the court because of my slightly yellow teeth. Which is why i'm doing these teeth whitening strips for 30 minutes and they kind of burn.
Anyway I gotta go into training for this too if I want to do it again next year and get a scholarship bigger than $250 (btw pageant pics are on myspace)
but BIGGER pictures here:
whiter teeth
thinner
if i could grow that'd be a plus
work on my speeches
and my walks.
and bonds with other females. hah.
so short of a life but such a big task.
I'm so excited for the slight indication of a 4 pack going on in my abs, it's the best thing i've ever experienced. It's the only thing left to tone out.
Hmm. these strips are gay.
I don't feel like being upset right now so I'm not going to talk about anything important tonight...maybe next entry.
AND i had to lock my diary because some people who I wrote about in here found it on accident and I don't want them reading it so yeah.
1:27 a.m. - 2008-06-28
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